“i just cant wait till i leave this place,
and get out of the track of this senseless maze.
same shit playing in an infinite repeat,
so sick of everything, i just want to retreat”
this was perhaps what i have said the most
when all things was just unproportioned and lost
funny how i kept on wishing for time to double its pace
when i can finally have a hand-to-hand with the ending of this race
so desperate for all the things to end, i can recall
but now thinking that we’re almost there makes me wanna roll
i never thought that the burning off of the days
would be something i’d be terrified to face
yes, i may have been waiting for this to come all along
but now, why i just cant make myself to sing a goodbye song?

memories start to flash before me as tears started to form
i once again got myself to the day when our friendship was born
when these guys painted my life with meaning
and together, we had all the learning and growing

it is just too painful to bear the fact that
we’ll be soon divided and have someone else as we solve math
as days draw nearer to its end
and as we start to receive back those thing we lend,
things suddenly had this drastic upturn
a tearful heart, begging for a return.

  I made that one several days before our High School graduation and now that I just had the chance to read it again, I cant help but to give myself a "Wow! Were you really the one who composed that?" Way back in High School, my friends, even my teachers! would often tell me how my writings fascinates them. I could still remember how shocked I am every time they'll ask for my help saying "Expert ka naman dito e, Master!" even up to now. I never really believed any of those. For why should I? I never viewed myself the way they do.

But now, as I read back to my old poems and journal, I cant deny it anymore that at some point, I feel they are right. lol

So anyway, going back to the real reason why I posted that poem in here is that, I really just miss everything! Sandbox, being at High School, being young and care-free with my friends. I still have these frequent flashbacks of our memories and would always feel a great urge of dissolving in tears out of yearning. This one may get boring as I say and say and say it more, but I really do miss them and it pains me so much.

Babes, thou incomplete, while having our field! Abaya's! I miss wearing them so much! :(

Wi-Suc, again, incomplete. While waiting for the bus to arrive to transport us to IPSA. I miss cheering for AJISD-IPSA basketball 'friendly' games.

 I just cant believe this! I know we have billions and trillions of picture while we were still on High School but man! Where are those!?! Cant find any of our batch pictures or am I just being lazy to find one? hahaha.